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I am a stay at home mom one of the hardest jobs out there let me tell ya having a job that you dont get paid for doing and the stress of raising your child plus being in charge of the house work gets to ya I do work some part time in the school lunch which is a great releaf to get out of the house but nothing like going to a spa that would be my ultimate releaf. I must say I love to see my child growing into a little person I would never change that for the world and must say I thought I was happy before we had Alex but now Alex is everything to us and we would'nt change it for the world. I'm married to this amazing guy he has good intentions and expectations of me but sometimes it may be a bit overwelming cause he expects so much of me I wish he would understand I have just as much stress at home doing my job as he does at work, he may work from 8 to 4 but I work from son up to son down and thats 12 plus hr days 7 days a week then on top of that I get a grumpy husband when he comes home from work (grrrr). Now that summer is finaly here (yaaay) I can finally go for outings with my son and we are both looking forward to the summer time I love being in the out doors and am looking forward to going camping this year all except wishing Alex wasnt still so small that I have to constantly worry about what he is eating and fear he will be eating bugs this year. Alex is such an active go happy person and loves to learn about new things I cant beleive how such an eager beaver he is and is so observant of other children and wants so much to have all the freedom they have and to be big and thats great but I am missing my little baby that once would just lay in my arms and stay and be good now I'm lucky if I get him to sit in my lap for 30 sec. I absolutley love being a mother and want very greatly to continue to expand our family. The things I like to do the most are the things I cant do with out my son being in the way (literaly)any time I try to do something he cant be a part of he throws a fit, so I dont get to do them very often but when I do it is excersizing, scrapbooking, working on my projects that are a very long list of things, drawing, painting, relaxing, sleeping (lack there of)swimming, I love to be active I need to be to keep up with Alex. I am no super mom in fact I have many flaws that need work, I am very greatful for the things I have and for the things we dont have or want I am very happy with how my life has turned out to be considering how rough our childhood was but I have learned from that and "hope" that I can raise my children to be better from the mistakes me and my parents have made. I am greatful for the family I grew up with even though it was a hard life I dont think it would be as hard as growing up with no family at all I think that would be terrible and wish some of my family would be more thankful for the family they have.